As all of my friends have their sweet babies and record in detail what happened in the birth story, I have done alot of thinking about Harrison's. I have to tell you, after Harrison was born, I didn't want to remember his delivery. I am mean I grateful that he is here and everything. But it was an awful experience. I would sit down to try and write it on paper or one this blog. But I didn't want to remember it.
It wasn't a happy and joyful experience. It was a hard and emotional one. I still look back and try to think that it wasn't all that bad. Well it was. I am scared to death to have another baby. At the same time I am scared that I might be pregnant forever!
I was talking with my sister in law, who just had an emergency C-Section and she had two vaginal births before. She said that it was a really emotional thing to go through. I couldn't agree with her more.
I think that one day soon I will sit down and write it out. Before this little one comes so that I don't mix things up. I just worry that Harrison with read it later in life and it won't be a happy thing. Which I love him to death and I couldn't ask for a better child (most days).
When I read most of my friend birth stories they talk about how they don't want to forget. I am on the other end. I want to forget all the bad things and remember the good things. Which I feel like I can't really forget all of the bad stuff.
I do remember a really funny thing that I did. I called people to let them know that I had my baby. Well they had come to see in the hospital. Opps, it isn't that I didn't love their visit. I was just really drugged! Which I hope this time will be different.
My doctor gave me the option of trying to do a VBAC, which I was surprised. When Greg and I discussed it he begged me not to do that. I can understand, I remember bits a pieces of certain things. Greg on the other hand, stood by a watched while he couldn't do a thing. He said it was really hard. Which I can only imagine. But then again you ask him what a C-Section is like and he will tell you straight faced, "It is like gutting a deer." Warm and fuzzy I know!
I am super excited to have this little girl here, but scared to get her here!
1 Sweet Notes:
I would just put down your happy memories of that time. Also of how you felt when he came to join your family. I don't believe you need to go into depth of the hardness, just mention that you had to have a c-section and just leave it like that. SO when Harry goes back and reads it he can know of how you felt. If you really want to write about it, then maybe do it in a personal journal, and not his baby book. That is my suggestion.
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